the seriousness is often lost in the irreverence, as I want someone to take me seriously so much that I have learned to act as though it doesn't matter if anyone ever does so well that I fool myself into believing it doesn't matter so well that the irreverence becomes more natural than the seriousness to the point where the irreverence is taken more seriously than the seriousness and therein swallows the seriousness so innocuosly that most people would believe it was never even there even if they noticed it in the first place...